Holidays lyrics

Someday the river will find me Solid walls of water And I’ll gestate in white under layers of ice In the first of the year I was born Almond-colored and warm Under blue waves and what little good it’s done So if I return my body to the running black Dark and cool and sudden Will it be me? Will I see me? And at holidays I remember They asked me how I was And at holidays I will wonder ‘how much longer?