Suffering 歌词

Dreams of blood taking life away dreams of blood appearing night and day sentenced by remembering just one cut and the heartbeat fades one short deed forever dead never felt so weak cannot move or act never been so deep in conflict with my past drown in pain now the past reigns inside my brain slave to what I once did past has won it isn't gone, it catches me again and again and again fantasies of horror seems like mental error but it is so real I think I feel what he felt when my love made his heartbeat fade to death how painful remembering can be it can get more important than present and reality this is my endless suffering suffering I still hear his cries feel his screams see his blood on my hands when he left, I also died 'cause he never loved me I took his life and now I am damned to