Insomnia 歌词

What is it all for? I've asked myself that question so many times now it's become more worn than my Reebok classics I'm a slave to frivolous habits Of introspection without any destination Ruminating thoughts in constant rotation Is this what it means to be conscious? To constantly question our conscious? Despondently fall on my back horizontally Under my bed there are monsters They visit me when I try to sleep They're those thoughts that play on repeat They say: Ren, you're always gonna suffer, Ren You're always gonna suffer And I boomerang between optimism and pessimism So much that my sanctuary could be a prison What blinds me could give me vision And what finds me is this indecision of what to do with these questions Is there purpose? Is there God? And if there is God, then God Why do I feel like this, God? Are we not sculpted in your image? And if so do you feel that pain? Un-relinquishing pain like my brain got put under a Bunsen burner and torched until the membranes became flame I hate not sleeping I like the weekend because other people don't sleep either Mindless TV shows irritate me, but they're my messiah Because I can become brain dead, wasted Lost in trails of dry saliva (But I'm a survivor, a child of destiny) But this night has been testing me Question the mess that's progressing, undressing me Stripping me naked and stuffing the stress in me I used to use drinking as a way to stop thinking And my problems with drinking made me feel like I was sinking So I dried up my drink and then I couldn't sleep a wink And now I'm thinking, now I'm thinking, now I'm thinking, now I'm thinking about nothing Fucking nothing! And everything, and nothing I hate not sleeping So I lie here trying to count sheep And their bleating's repeating My bleeding heart, it is beating And beating me in my sleep is the plea And pleading for healing is fleeting Longing for sleepless? Audibly speaking? I weep in the sheets It's doubling doubley, troubling subtling It's bleak, it's so bleak, it's so bleak And I lost my mind on a line I hate not sleeping I hate not sleeping