Nothingness lyrics

I wish I could be more But my lack of will sank me into nothing I'm drowning into a void I created And I insist to dive deep But I still force myself to feel Anything that expels the anxiety But I know I can't reach the surface I just can't embrace anything Seems like every effort is worthless And life is a game I know I'll never win Despair is already a part of me And I still don't know how to push aside all the anxiety I've lost all faith in myself I cannot escape this nothingness I'll keep on drowning 'till I disappear I've lost all faith in myself I'm diving in