Portrait lyrics

I am a portrait of pure anxiety Blurred by emptiness, overflowing false serenity And I keep hiding all the mess inside of me I am an old portrait suffocated by anguish Trying to feel alive with desolation surrounding me I try so hard to express myself but every word is so heavy I’m a prisoner inside my own body There's no way out that I can reach And I keep carrying all the weight inside of me I am an old portrait suffocated by anguish Trying to feel alive with desolation surrounding me I try to find ways to express myself or understand what I feel But it's hard to think of anything when everything feels so heavy My mouth just seems to be unable to speak what my soul feels And how can I pretend to be in peace with this desolation surrounding me? I’m trying to feel alive