Acceptance 가사

I'm not okay I've never been fucking okay Every single day I fake this Goddamn smile Just so they can get their way It makes me sick to live through this misery How much longer can I bare with this agony? The anticipation to take a gun, put it to my head And pull the trigger Pull the trigger And see how much red will spread Until I drop dead I'm sick in the fucking head I long to lie in my wooden bed Cross my arms Kill my sight Reaper, save me Hold me tight Broken since birthed No one can comprehend What it's like to truly be cursed It can only be heard so far within this closed coffin I know I'm not like the rest I'm just a piece of shit at best I'm sorry I'm not okay I wish I could be for both you & me I'm trying to save you from all that's bad When I am the reason what's wrong in this world I always turn my back to the clock Because I never want to know when my time is up I always turn my back to the clock Because I never want to know when my time is up