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I hold your name like a shard in my mouth Too sharp to swallow Too precious to spit I love you with a room full of locked doors Hands on the handles, still I can't turn Every old bruise in me knows your touch And still my chest says run, then burn You ask for a little truth, I hand you smoke You ask for my weight, I give you shiver I am not cold, I am overfull Like a cracked glass trying to keep water I see the hurt in your eyes When I vanish inside my own mind I hear your voice at the edge of the night And I can't cross that line I want to stay I really do But my bones keep shaking through You found all the broken pieces That I tried so hard to hide Now I'm terrified you'll leave And terrified you'll stay inside I don't know what hurts more Being seen completely Or remaining alone If I let you in, I might lose you If I pull away, I lose you too But every road I take somehow Still leads back to your soul Sleepless, I pace through the same dark hour Counting the ways I ruin soft things Your name on my screen like a lit fuse I stare too long, then don't say anything My past sits heavy in the backseat Won't let me drive when I reach for you I make a storm out of one small calm Then blame the sky for what I do You deserved a love that could stand upright Mine keeps folding under its own weight I keep mistaking fear for wisdom And calling it fate I see the hurt in your eyes When I turn my silence into walls I hear your heart at the edge of mine And I still let myself fall I want to stay I really do But I tremble straight through you You found all the broken pieces That I tried so hard to hide Now I'm terrified you'll leave And terrified you'll stay inside I don't know what hurts mor Being seen completely Or remaining alone If I let you in, I might lose you If I pull away, I lose you too But every road I take somehow n Still leads back to your soul I am the one who apologizes too late The one who hides in the doorway of his own life I know you are not a wound to be survived You are the only warm place in this fight But I keep flinching at tenderness Like it was built to end me And I hate how much I need you While I practice leaving There, I said it I am terrified Not of losing love Of being seen inside it Of you finding all the broken wiring And staying anyway While I still can't stay You found all the broken pieces That I tried so hard to hide Now I'm terrified you'll leave And terrified you'll stay inside I don't know what hurts more Being seen completely Or remaining alone If I let you in, I might lose you If I pull away, I lose you too But every road I take somehow Still leads back to your soul So leave the light on in your chest I'll keep stumbling toward it I love you I love you I just don't know how to carry it