Epiphany lyrics

What just came over me I haven't felt in awhile Years I've been living Was only existing So show me the world like a child Some new epiphany Laid down its roots in my mind Life's an illusion So I'll keep refusing to bury myself in it's lies But sometimes the sky looks so beautiful And I'll cry and just try to hold it all Changed my course and now I'm pretending We were never ever descending Down, down, down, down Realization came and hit me that Maybe you could really miss me If I'm not around, round So call off the guards And turn fear to love If you can, please Finally taking a gulp full of air so I'm fine Oxygen reaches the places it's needed Reluctantly staying alive I want love but not only from myself I gave all my tender to someone else Changed my course and now I'm pretending We were never ever descending Down, down, down, down Realization came and hit me that Maybe you could really miss me If I'm not around, round I've gotten really good at faking I calculate the risk I'm taking The walls keep me safe and sound Years and years of preservation Have made it so intimidating But I'm ready now, now So call off the guards I turned fear to love My epiphany Ooh, ooh