Painting Me Gray lyrics

Autumn flies by like its only a day I gotta get high cause I'm trying to stay here But can I make it another year? Ink isn't dry on the letters I've penned Feels like I'll die if I lose one more friend Oh, will the misery ever end? Seasons, they will change And so will I and you Reasons, I'll take the blame Deflate my pride, follow through Guess I never knew how to do things right Watched everyone else start to take their flights away And it's painting me gray Took the tiniest step then I fell once more The people I love tend to leave before they'll stay And its painting me gray everyday Mold myself into what turned out to be A sculpture of someone who's nothing like me And it breaks so easily Someone familiar could offer a hand Soften these edges with paper and sand Then I would meet myself again All my yesterdays I scrub them clean and I'm sure Now I can say What I need is not a cure Guess I never knew how to do things right Watched everyone else start to take their flights away And it's painting me gray Took the tiniest step then I fell once more The people I love tend to leave before they'll stay And its painting me gray everyday Ooh, ooh All this time I thought I'd find my footing And I'd know what I'm doing But I don't See the lines around my fractured smile Is there a number I could dial to be less alone? Guess I never knew how to do things right Watched everyone else start to take their flights away And it's painting me gray Took the tiniest step then I fell once more The people I love tend to leave before they'll stay And its painting me gray And its painting me gray And its painting me gray And its painting me gray everyday